I am, very belatedly, making one new years resolution for 2009. I feel like its okay since January hasnt ended yet. I am going to blog more. Now I am perfectly aware that PLENTY of people have made this resolution and to all of them I say, stop copying me. I thought of it first, seriously.

I love lists, so while I have no current plans of creating a list based blog I am more than likely going to include a few “Top 5’s” and “Most Favorite ______”, etc.  Right now I will start simple with a short list of things I have thought and observed over the past mmmm five days. So just to be clear, thats “List of Things Thought and Observed From Jan. 20th 2009 to Jan. 25th 2009″

For short…

“LOTTAO”

1. Daniel the magnificent purchased tulips online and had them delivered to my apt. to suprise me becuase he is sneaky sneaky.

2. It is difficult to be a vegetarian when you keep forgetting that youre not supposed to eat meat.

3. There is a such thing as TOO MUCH AIRFRESHENER

4. Handling too much cardboard makes my hands all miosture deprived and sadlike

5. Electric heaters click clack all night long

6. Pretty much everything is ‘what she said’

7. My families foster baby Gaby likes to wear her dirty socks on her hands like mittens

8. IKEA products have a very specific smell to them

9. Starbucks double shot should be renamed “Starbucks Punch in the Face”

I definitely feel like there should be ten items on this list but I dont want to conform to any kind of pre-established code of list making so im going to end it at 9 with the hope that I will be joyful about it when I wake up tomorrow and now want to “fix” it.

Sidenote, Ive always wanted to learn how to do glass-blowing. I think id suck at it but it seems so interesting..

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So I moved up to San Luis Obispo in August and I live in a sweet ass apartment with my dear friend Alex Creswell and I have an amazing job and wonderful friends both at home and here and I still feel like something is missing. I have never in my whole life had a moment where I felt completely and utterly whole. I think theres a reason too. My life here on earth is temporary and separate from the ultimate peace of unity with God. I really do think that the deep, relentless feeling of being unfulfilled that constantly torments my soul is supposed to help me recognize my desire for the Lord. I want so badly to feel complete, and I know that I wont until I am in Heaven and share in the rest of eternity with Christ. I cant wait, some days I am just filled with anticipation. I am such a broken person and my greatest comfort is in knowing that I wont always be this way. Hallelujah!

so i started thinking, if the average number of words spoken by any given person in one day ranges from 1500 to 2200, what the hell is everyone saying. I mean so much of my life is filled up with utterly useless conversation that I am convinced I speak solely for the comfort of my own voice about 60% of the time. I dont listen nearly as much as I talk and I tell the same stories so many times that I repeat them to the same people. Im so sick of hearing about myself! Maybe this isnt a problem that other people struggle with… maybe im just that slightly crappier than normal person who gets so bored inside her head that she has to start sending useless word vomit out into the world around her. Words should mean something more than they do! Sentences should the spoken with thought and intention behind them. If I truly thought about what i say, im sure i wouldnt talk nearly as much! What happened to the poetry of conversation, when did words begin to lose weight? Im really worried about this.

There is something about Arizona that fills me up. Ive been in and around the state since last thursday visiting friends and vacationing and I am just overwhelmed! Yahweh is so big and gracious and beautiful and He has created such a fierce world, and a fierce people too! I am so constantly deceived and tricked and lured in by the sins and temptations of this earthly life but then I am also saved! Over and over again I am saved from death and saved from sin and saved from pain. It is more than I deserve to even wake up every morning and I hope that the more I remember that the more I will recognize all the blessings that the Lord is raining on my life!

Ive had blogs in the past. Ive sent myself out into the digital world before, but this blog is different. I intend for this blog to be a complete celebration of life. I want to illuminate the joys and blessings and lessons occurring in my own life and bring attention to the beauty that exists in our world. I am a generally happy person and I would like to contribute to my own exuberance by recognizing that which is good and pure and overflowing. Thats about all I have right now, ill update again soon.